Sanctuary
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To tell you the truth, my horoscopes have been insanely accurate lately. And really makes me wonder if I am just along for the ride. Haha, wonder if all the "control" I think I have is really no control at all. But I like to think it is - that we have some role in deciding our future and that the series of events that have created this wormhole in time is an ay-okay place to be.
I've been spending a lot of time in the water. Who knew it would be so rejuvenating and healing. It's become my favorite kind of therapy and past time. But let's face it Miguel, how fortunate are you to be living this life. Pinch yourself moment after pinch yourself moment. Surely this is a sign you are going in the right direction? An "omen" of some kind. Keep keeping your head up and stay positive, i'm sure everything will work out for the best. Keep swimming chico.
Matcha-rama
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Castle
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Booming with exhilaration, a familiar energy leashed out of me. Gold and rose, my comet shot out like champagne springing out of my anima -shattering the tempered passenger window glass, enclosing and ensnaring the bright-blue-comet-dragon.
Dancing. They were dancing! Dancing in jubilation to see you, ...you, friend. -To journey together again. Right there, we, gold rose magic and I, knew no matter where I am, or where I'm going, there I know you'll be.
There, I know, you will fly into the plane and ride right next to me and leave our spirits outside to play.
(Paparacchi)
World Mental Health Day
4:36 PM Michael 0 Comments
In the moment
8:34 AM Michael 0 Comments
Sure, I'm usually trying to seek the opposite - pin pointing moments of "bliss" and looking for what they are telling me. "This must be my passion", "this is what I am drawn to".
But today, instead, I have come to the realization that these are the moments I need to really lean into. The things that might cause a little or a lotta angst.
TIME. I am always trying to stop time, to slow it down. I get sad when the sun sets early. Like, I wasn't given enough time today. " I wasn't given enough time". Hm.
But it's not that there's not enough time. I have as much time in a day as Oprah.
What I am needing to practice is STILLNESS. Not even slowing down - but stillness.
Being in the moment and not thinking about the next moment. Not planning some grandiose idea about the future or being worried about needing to be super productive today so that tomorrow I can reap those benefits. What i am most needing now is to be more in the moment. Fully. Treating every moment as ever significant and as it's own. Instead of being in a conversation and conjuring up what I am going to say next, I need to be fully attentive to what my partner in conversation is saying. -Actually saying. Not sitting there translating it into what I can come up with in response. Not being worried if my response will be intelligent enough. Open your ears Miguel, open your mind, open your heart, stop the race and listen. There is the answer!
Of course, "stopping the race", that's a whole other conversation.
Be still. Be at peace with the uniqueness each moment is and brings. Maybe then, time won't be such a complaint anymore. No, it definitely won't be a complaint, because each moment has its own independent value. In this small way, I can make the most out of the day and the most out of my life. Maybe this way I will truly relish a person when they are in front of me. -that I can understand how important all they are saying and doing is. That I can understand how important they are to be and how blessed I am right there - in the moment.
So Miguel, I don't want to say this is a new challenge for you, I think challenge is to harsh a word, and I'm all for being gentle atm. Maybe....a new mindfulness. Literally...to be mindful. This is the sword to conquer time. And it's also the blanket to swaddle it. Because that baby is precious.
Dream on Good
10:20 PM Michael 0 Comments
Therapie
2:34 PM Michael 0 Comments
Katherine is very kind, very wise and chooses to ask me a different question, from another direction.
"Do you think he is your soul mate?"
Gratitude
6:27 PM Michael 0 Comments
Life - b/c it's a place to learn and develop yourself and the world around you. What an opportunity. What a challenge - again - what an opportunity.
Friends - b/c they are there to slap me when I need to be slapped. -And feed me when I need to be fed. I came home and there was food in the fridge that I didn't make myself.
Family - b/c they are resilient and care about each other. ps. - unfortunately we haven't been able to contact several members of our family after hurricane maria / irma and have lost everything....everything- homes, food, resources, it's actually very sad - but we are trying our best to make a way.
Being able to learn things fairly quickly - When I opened iMovie for the first time, I was so dumbfounded, but I was so determined to create a video, and soon I've discovered that I love creating movies. It is pure pleasure and really feeds my creative crevices.
15 September blog posts! - I took a glance back and saw the last time that happened was September 2010. Of course, I was so young and eager then - but what's wrong about being older and eager :P I have always noticed over time, after writing things and getting it out somewhere - on paper, on a blog - strangely wonderful things happen. Like the universe is like, 'yes, I have been waiting for you to make this concrete observation/request...here's the next step'. It's also very special reading all these letters to yourself from yourself so long ago. What a great friend you have inside.
For myself - dude you've got to be the strongest chico I've ever met, in the lowest egotistical way. I'm so happy to be on this journey with you and am so proud of your transformation inside and out.
For Elmhurst - what a beautiful neighborhood to live in with such beautiful people with beautiful families. I'm always amazed by how warm my little neighborhood is.
For having worked at Bloomingdales - honestly, there were days I was really meh-ish about working there, but man has working there developed some incredible people and aesthetic skills that have come in handy so many times lately.
For the mta - I'm kinda half saying this one hehe and saying it to welcome the future of a reliable, clean, efficient people filled subway system. Bring it to me universe!!!!
For bubble baths - boy do I love a good green tea, eucalyptus, oatmeal bubble bath.
And once more, because once wasn't enough - friends - you guys are diamonds. supernovas. universes rolled into a human body. I am so honored to have met you and to be meeting you - future friends.
xx
Your Miguel
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