It seems when it comes to people, some are just more intimidating than others. These crazy social beings in a packed world and can feel so alone. Or maybe I feel overwhelmed gaining and gaining acquaintances but with no brilliant reason to it. Maybe it's not so much scary but just the idea this one person could change your entire life and you two are just a few feet away. And you could be missing out on this nano-second and this nano-second and this one too knowing each other. Strange how someone's effect on you can vary so greatly. They make you tense up and have no idea what to say sometimes(all the time) and amaze, stunn, whatever-you. And there's this entire portion of them that lived and lives without you that never bothers you with anyone else. and the fact that I'm even thinking about these kind of things terrifies me.
Last night was SO much fun!! Ahh and now I'm pretty much stuck in my room until my project is lookin' up. I hope you all are having a wonderful valentine's day. There are pictures on facebook. AND it snowed! And although it wasn't here to stay it was such a nice surprise. I'm so glad. It's been a really interesting weekend. Interesting really. Since my dad doesn't have a job anymore, none of us have health insurance. Craziness. My mom is so freaking worried about me because I'm super illness prone. I'm stuck on Omega tablets right now. It's so pretty outside! I hope I get to upload the video project I've been working on for a while now soon. Ek. Stalk me later okay!?
"And it all came down to one thing: love, or lack of it. The chances we take, knowing no better, to fall or to stand back and hold ourselves in, protecting our hearts with the tightest of grips." -- This Lullaby.
It's weird but the more that's going on, the less likely you are to stay in contact. Then again, that's not so weird. Today is the one week anniversary of my food poisoning day in Hades. So far, today is going much better though! Jacqueline visited me from DC on Sunday. It was really nice to see her. I do have an affinity though for hanging out with older folks. She and her ex boyfriend from forever ago. ...clearly. But they were super cute and ate oysters. I did not. And that guy could have totally gone to scad talking about the cool colors in the composition he wanted on the road. The good dream / bad dream shoots didn't go through this weekend for Fashion Haus. I have been a little missing in action in the club scene. I'm so glad it is finished raining. At home is apparently dubbed "Snowcopalypse", isn't that crazy. And now that Trey and I won't have to be spending the weekend without Kayleigh, Roni, Make, and Maeg this weekend should go a little bit better.
And to be honest my thoughts on Valentines day for the lover less include, it only becomes "single's awareness day" because you observe it as such. In reality it is a good thing to have a day that breaks away from the seriousness of things. And this is love the world is talking about, it shouldn't be a stressor. Besides if it is lovin you are worried about, I think you are pretty finee. We seriously spend so much time trying to be liked by other people. Make yourself crushworthy. Love yourself. "Crush" yourself. Whoever decides to join in: well they're pretty lucky. Confidence, self-worth, not ego. And while I cannot say I am not guilty of always having that attitude, think about it, love yourself. You are ALWAYS with yourself. Enjoy it. And you will find more reason to love others. Even after St. Valentine's day.
Color theory and Drawing are on the Agenda and I am ever dying in Speech class. Makenzye and I were in the laundry room doing our drawing projects last night/this morning. We called it off at four. My clothes did not get properly dried though so now they are all over the bed. This is chillin with the Pandora. I'm thinking maybe I should put more pictures on the wall but idreallyknow. I haven't seen so many people in a very long seeming time and FOUR WEEKS, NO WAY. That's so fast! I'm actually sad about it. No more CB :(
I just want to go dancing. Here are so pics from Jasmin, Alecia and my trip to the Chinatown by Anderson. Haha it's so cute! At least the little boy was.
Mylene! I COULD'NT BELIEVE when I saw those panda things! Like I literally said your name out-loud! I will probably go drawing later.
So I'm really not into makeup but Michelle Phan recommends this concealer for guys in her "Guy Makeup Tutorial" and I live (and love) her. But it's pretty nice. I'm not a makeup wearer though still. I can stick around for the crows feet. I don't know, guy make up is becoming more and more increasingly popular, like a change of the times. But we'll see. I am however an avid face washer and although I don't have this I have only heard good things about IQQU, Michelles Line. It even costs less now. Click on it if you want the website. oh and watch her youtube videos, I love her!
I've been thinking about doing a picture a day thing, but I've been trying and not consistently doing it in the past. I will tell you how it goes!
I love themm. And zumba. (That isn't a good picture.) I have windows 7 now! But I can't open any of my files on my external harddrive. I just borrowed a cord from Rachel but it doesn't really fit that well. And when it does notice it the only way I can open it is to format it and that would erase the files. So.. yea. I finished my speech on Friday!! That is insane. Maybe I'll upload what I read later. (LATER) I stumbled a bit on the end I should have just looked down at the note-card but just totally forgot. I tweet sometimes. You should totally follow me. And the drawing final is turned in. It's not the best but is a lot better than anything I could have done last quarter. This could be an embarrassing post. There are a few reasons why I go.
Say bye to the blonde. Well it's a 28 day change. and does not look like Nutmeg. I left it in too long. :( My fault. My fault.
You probs know how Asian obsessed I am.
I have a lot of Color Theory to work on. The other day I had to buy a certain sketch book for drawing class but it costs 30 large bucks for the maybe the 10 times you turn the page. Also, if I buy a 30 dollar sketch book that means I cannot buy drawing pencils and does that not defeat the purpose? At ExLihbris they sell a different dimension for 15 dollars. It's hard out here. My mom wants to know if I need more money but I found that my dad lost his job the other day. He's had that one forever and now he is old. So that's pretty scary. My mom doesn't really work so.. I have tried for a position as an RA but I don't think I have attended any Residence life events this quarter yet and cannot get a signature on that. We will see. My friend Kayleigh and I will possibly get job applications at XO. I don't really know.
So I've thought about a few things to keep up blogging. Including I have recorded videos. I would just have to first get over being embarrassed and put it up. Also, I was thinking of a day shot. But the dramatic hair change has already gone over. We'll see.
First day of classes today and I started with: K. Lancaster at 11 for Speech. He seems really nice. I hope it's great. Unfortunately grey and balding falls into my personal asthetic. Should I say that on the internet? I am kind of nervous (Very nervous) about speaking. I also spend my afternoons avoiding ExLibris. My schedule is way nice. I mentioned I switched around in that book post. It is jealousy worthy. Maybe I will work at the CVS? The one that closes at 6... Also, I played the Wii for the FIRST TIME today. And saw Moulin Rouge(sp?) for the first time too. These are going on the 2010 did list. You will never guess what song I had stuck in my head today.
I totally wanted to make this post on NEW YEARS EVE. But, I just couldn't. But what's 3 day's after, it's not like one day a year or anything (slight sarcasm.) AND I don't really have much to talk about. There was apple cider involved. I was over it. Candace at the register in the Scafe deff asked me if I drank or got a little tipsy or whatever on new years and the Security guy/ Police man is like RIGHT THERE as in 1-2-3 (not only you and me♫ ♪) convo. I said "what are you talking about, I am a goodboy" and the worst part about it is I was trying to NOT sound boring. That was my spicy version compared to the actually thing. I swear I am not exciting. Exciting "goodboy" 2010? lawls. Here's that photo montage. It was slim pickings (I lost my usb to connect my external harddrive / had the most obviously not to experienced flyer showing at the DCA. ...This is another story.)
2009 dids: 1.(these are not being ranked) blonde. 2.the 3rd plane ride after 1st grade happened. yay for that 3.The CityDance Ensemble. (love goes here) 4.First time eating/making sushi. Cake club forever. 5.This was the first time I went to forever 21. haha crazy 6.Lumiere lived. :) 7.First midnight showing. (a lot of firsts michael?) 8.FIRST CELLPHONE happened! 9.the graduation. 10.Project Fundway happened. as well as death. 11.Washington Post happened. as well as Fox morning show. 12.asthma happened. 13.drag. 14.intro to crushing-like-inez. 15.intro to buying own toilet paper. 16.First time at the gymmm. 17.First time ice skating. (haha i have not lived) 18.First blogger post. 19.My Asian obsession started. 20.I met Ricky at VSL hair salon!!!! You make me bad boy. ..I wish. 21.Watched the first 3 seasons of digimon. haha.. 22.Got caught in the deathly rain multiple times. 23.Photo shoots happened. 24.Prom happened. 25.Birth happened. 26.Headache at gallery/chinatown happened. 27.Out happened. 28.Salsa Monday. 29.Jazz at the White House. with bagels at sitar 30.Potbelly photoshoot. 31.Found reason to be happy, discovered the universe and actualize how small and almost insignificant I am yet how amazing it is I live. 32.Saw 500 days of summer. 33.And like every year, loved. But this is philos we are talking about.
