Giving thanks

1:21 AM Michael 0 Comments

I feel like I'm the type of guy that suddenly becomes more spiritual when I really want something. "Lord, help me get this job/internship/other desired outcome." "Hail Mary full of grace, please bless my bank account". At these times I find I act like God is Santa Claus or a fairy godmother. And even, I begin to bargain my attention in order to get what I want. And--these feelings are so clear on my mind because there is something I especially want right now and I'm already planning my church schedule.
I'm thinking to myself, and thinking to myself all the times I made it out of unfavorable situations and how I am perfectly healthy and surviving right now. Isn't that enough to want. "Thou shall not want--he maketh me lie down in green pastures". This is all to say, it's gonna be OK Miguel. My biggest wow about the last few post college months is how seamlessly opportunity and good things have come. I feel terrific. And that is the truth. (Maybe it is the lack of homework) haha. I must be more reverent.
To God, thanks for letting me make totally selfish requests, yet refraining from striking me down. I'm sure the requests are going to keep rolling in for the rest of my life. "I want this, or for this to happen". Remind me to allow my spirit of gratitude to counterbalance my spirit of want. I really have so, so much.

A Psalm of David. 
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: 
He leadeth me beside the still waters. 
He restoreth my soul: //
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: 
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.